haiz....here am i...writing this blog with a disturbed mind....
i dnt knw whts wrong with me.....
why im like this?why is my life like this.....?
cn i just kill myself?yes...to u pple i might look like a happy go lucky person....
but...deep....down inside....im struggling......
to survive....i dnt knw why.....
why am i born in this family....
yes i knw its not a good thing to say...but....
i cnt take it anymore.....
watching other familys going out together...eating together...spending time together....
hurts me....to u guys...u pple might say...."hey u are not the only one"
but look....ask urself this...do u knw hw does it feels like when u are caught in te
middle...between parents fighting,going their own ways...
u dnt knw who to choose.....and after that...u end up living with one of them....
suffering....i just dnt  knw hw to put everything together......
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!forget it.....
i wish i cn just leave this world.....
be somewhere where there's happiness,love...everything.....
well...as for today...i didnt do much....went to work...then break....
after that....went somewhere....
away frm pple......DRINKING!!!!!!yes thats wht i did....and im still drinking now....
my 3rd bottle of vodka.....hahahaha.......
love.......am i prepare for that?
im still hurt....yes i love u...but...
i still need alot of time.....
seriously......
just dnt fall for me too much.....
an advice.....
dnt.....
when the time comes....
i'll decide if wana be with u or not....
im saying this coz...i dnt want to give u high hope on me.....
pls....
i knw it hurts..
dnt worry we'll still be the same....ntg will change....
i cn asure u that......
k la....i really gtg....wana finish my bottle....then maybe go for another one ltr.....
hahahahahahahahahahaahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sob...sob...sob....sob....sob...........................